An Open Letter To My Psychologist

I used to be so afraid that I would never be able to do half the things I am capable of doing right now.

Back when I first started seeing you in 2014, I could barely even do what is such a simple thing for some, like going to school or out to the shopping centre - this would be a process of psyching myself up for hours on end, driving my family insane in the process.

I didn't have sleepovers at my friends houses because of the battle I faced with Anxiety and Agoraphobia, it is because of you that I am slowly but surely becoming more comfortable with the idea of doing those things.

It is because of the homework you had me doing away from our sessions that I implemented the days to purposely go to places which made me uncomfortable to do exposure therapy, doing that has now set my soul free and I'm doing more then I could have ever imagined.

It is because of you that I am putting to action the idea of travelling, it is because of you that I have reached a personal place of love for the world that awaits my foot steps.

I never thought I was going to be able to see the world around me because traveling means new and unfamiliar places which alone used to be my biggest trigger.

I used to think that I wouldn't be able to go anywhere that didn't lead me back to my own home at the end of the day, the safest place was behind four walls where I wasn't affected by the hustle outside.

It is because of you that I know I am safe within myself, where ever I go now.

It is because of you I learnt to trust and confide in others again.

I have learnt so much from you, you pushed me to my limits and made me keep going despite being at the pit of my darkest days, I really thought I was done trying when I first started seeing you.

You were my mums last resort for getting me help, she could only do so much on her own, and deep down, as much as it hurts my heart to say this still, I knew seeing you was going to be my last resort too, so without saying anymore, I am so fucking grateful we found you.

To the dearest lady that saved my life, I owe my all to you;

And..

Although I know this is your job, to me it is much more than that.

Thank you, from the depths of my heart, for giving me the guidance to walk the path ahead, the tools to maintain my life and giving me the value to go on, for the rest of my life.

Sending love and light to all reading, it means the world to me and so many more that you are here right now, keep going. I'm so incredibly proud of us.